Last Friday was CHIJ Grad Night.
I enjoyed myself A LOT A LOT.
I took a lot of photos with my friends.
But I accidentally deleted EVERY picture accidentally the next morning.
By Saturday morning I was mourning.
All the pictures I had taken was GONE.
But I could retrieve some pictures from my friends.
But I couldnt retrieve pictures with my closest friends, Livia and Louann.
Among the three of us, only I took the pictures, and the pictures are gone. FOREVER.
it can only be in our memory. Memory fades, picture doesn't.I hate myself.
All the other pictures with my classmates..I dont really care if it's gone, but the ones with my closest friends..time cannot turn back.
it was my foolish finger that accidentally pressed the DELETE ALL button.
It was a morning, I was trying out the new camera, excited to see those photos with my friends, still with a hazy mind.
I didnt realised what I had pressed, until I tried to view those photos.
The message was 'NO IMAGES'
I thought it malfunctioned.
Then I realised I pressed the DELTE ALL button without realising it.
That was because i was still trying out the camera. WTF i thought.

I cried.
Very painful indeed.
But I consoled myself.
Those are just pictures.
They can be taken again.
But it will never bring us back to the place and the time and the dress and makeup we wore on 14th Nov 2008 at 3rd Floor Grandroom of Marriott Hotel Singapore.
i consoled myself that my friends are still around, and that photos are nothing compared to friendship.
I consoled myself that there are more things to fret on and there are more people fretting over worse things than I do.
For example, food, water, housing, finance..etc.
Compared to those things, my pictures are nothing.
'Where there's a will, there's a way'
And the pictures cannot be compared to the friendship we share!
Livia, Louann, you're the bestest friends I've ever met!
I hope that this friendship continues even after we graduate!

Stepped into the musical world at 8:58 PM

Wish I had a better camera so I could take a better picture of my school. Look! The flowers outside 3rd floor staffroom is pretty, but my camera cant capture the essence well enough. But I've got one real good one at home which i think it's too good for me to use I would spoil it because it's those professional camera.

Whoa I thought Monday was the last day we were singing our school song, perhaps some of Sec 4s requested to sing the School song for one last time. And so it was played specially for us.
The last day feels like a first day. Everyone in my class was chattering so much during Amaths lesson that Mr Teh had to lecture us. Sort of.
It felt like everyone hadnt seen each other for a long time. Which is true, since my class have many many who skip school from Monday to Thursday.
BLAH BLAH This day is the last official school day I am having proper lessons in CHiJ. The next time I come will be for National exams.
Aww I will miss those school days..

Stepped into the musical world at 8:42 PM

Today is our second last day of school.
I still haven't try our school's Jap stall's and Western stall's food HA HA HA.
Tomorrow we are taking a Level photo. The whole of Sec Fours are gathering tomorrow to take a photo. A mass photo taken of the sisters I've seen for the past ten years. Most of whom I know but some I've just no fate to know them at all. So ironical, to have seen them for the past ten years and know that they exist yet I dont even know their names. Sometimes when I go out, you just know "she's from our school" that kind of thing.

Stepped into the musical world at 10:52 PM

Today is the day when the school song is being played and sung by the graduating classes for the last time.
I heard many of my classmates who sang the school song when it was played, because we dont usually sing it aha. This last time.. I still remember the first time I learn the lyrics and the first time I was singing it.
I still remembered it was being taught by Ms D'Cruz in the music room when we were P1. I remember the orange tiles in which we sat on and there were famous musicians whose pictures hung on the board in the Music Room. They have since become one of my favourite musicians.
Aww..every first time will have a last time..
This is my last time I am hearing the school song and it's also the last time I am singing it.
It also marks the IJourney my sisters and I have been through for a whole ten years.
My keyboard is so filthy, this shows how long I've not touch my computer. It's so late at night, but I must definitely mark this day & write it down.

Stepped into the musical world at 11:25 PM

This morning I went to school for Amaths lesson.
As usual, Mr Teh is so funny and his face is forever so comical.
I was also looking forward to listening to Val's day on Teacher's Day celebration, she gave me more than I expected.
Mong people went to bought their dresses w/o even bothering to ask me.
Yes I know I didnt go to school that day, but they didnt know I was planning not to go to school, so how would they have known that I cant go? It just proves that the Mongs only have 10 people, that is, minus me. They didnt even bother to ask me.
NOT just once. But many. Baking, go to whose house for whatwhat celebrations etc.
Sometimes one would sms me "Give me yr reply! quick!" and I reply "For what?"
Then the 2nd sms would be "*(the event)" and my reply "ohok"
3rd reply "Now you know" my reply in my heart "Yea, the last to know"

Because I do not even know what event it is in the 1st place, how do I know when and what to reply? When everyone knew it long ago but it was just an impromto to me.

During the amaths lesson, I was like, so stress I have not bought it yet.
But I was thinking it wasnt the grad night dress that bothers me. I was thinking, was it because 'they didnt even bother to ask me' or was it that 'it just slipped their minds to ask me'?
I was thinking 'am I even their friend'? Cause I can't feel it.
During recess, they dont even wait for me when I went to the bookshop but they do wait for the other Mong when they go to the bookshop.
I guess I am like the air around them that makes myself visible only when I laugh.

Friends aside. My passion for music.
Lin You Jia's voice is SO SO SO HOT.
He looks so cute cute small small boy but he can really sing.
He has a cute face and a small physique but his voice is really hot. Really cant tell.
Why is it like that again?!! last year, I only liked Evan 2 days after he left Singapore.
This year, I only like Lin You Jia 3-4 days after he left Singapore!
Why is it like that. Always missing the chance to meet them!
He made me love his voice even more after he sang so many Jazz songs.
And he made me fall in love with the music genre Jazz.
haha Now I can really say i love music all-roundedly. I love Jazz, Classic, Rock, Ballads, Acapella etc.
I guess many peopel will feel that people who likes Classic must love Jazz but not Rock. I guess you're wrong. I like rock first, then I started to like Classic, then I am just beginning to like Jazz.
Music rocks my world.

deleted my archives code to protect myself from cyber bullies.

ps: I am giving the benefit of the doubt that 'it slipped their minds to ask me'

Stepped into the musical world at 2:18 PM